Lecture IX 11th January, 1935
I will return to the young man’s second dream which we were dis cussing when we broke up for the Christmas holidays.
We have seen that the dreamer identifies with his sister who personifies h i s effeminacy, so the wound in his throat is s elf-inflicted.
This is the case of a castration complex, where a young man realises that he is not masculine, but feminine.
This is a very serious condition all the world over; the greatest misfortune that can befall a primitive man is to be transformed into a woman.
When the dreamer deals his sister a blow on the head, he is hitting himself, making himself aware of something, for when a truth suddenly becomes clear to us we feel as if we had received a blow.
The parents are naturally shocked by this violence, for their son has cast off his effeminacy, with which all his affects were bound up, and has become a violent man.
Had they been sensible parents they would not have been delighted to keep a homo-sexual son at home.
We see that this dream is a positive one, it shows where the possibility of a cure lies, it stages the conflict in fact, showing the dreamer his effeminacy, in order that he may free himself.
It marks the transition from an absolutely childish condition to normal manhood. In reality this is a slow development; the dreamer cannot suddenly throw off his homo-sexuality and hurry into matrimony, this would result in only a partial cure, for he would then marry unsuitably.
His b est feeling has been identified with his mother and he would probably seek out a woman who would play the mother role, a harmless situation no doubt, but only as long as the wife can stand it.
On the other hand he might marry the very opposite of his mother, an inferior woman, a cocotte.
The result might be a catastrophe, for she might hand down venereal disease to their children.
It is unfortunate that this diseases is not openly declared like any other, but people only speak of what they call respectable diseases..
Young people who have an infantile relationship to their parents, such as the dreamer has, suffer from a poor constitution, their development is arrested and they reach maturity very late, in this respect at forty they are sometimes really only eighteen.
I am reminded of certain people in high positions, [I will not mention names) people of a high intellectual standing, whose feeling side has remained immature.
In cases of this facultative homo-sexuality the whole psychical side is affected; these men try to give themselves a manly appearance by growing beards, but they usually remain bachelors.
I undergo an operation for appendicitis.
Then I am sitting on an altar in a Gothic church washing myself with Eau de Cologne. (Here occurs a kind of hiatus and the dream continues illogically).
I want to seek out Prof. S.D. who seems also to be Dr. S.
In my first attempt I fail.
The second time I set out to reach him I pass through a jeweler’s shop where I meet my mother and admire the jewels.
The operation for appendicitis recalls a wound in his arm given t o him, when a child, by his sister, who is older than he .
Appendicitis is a dangerous illness, the appendix has to be cut off which suggests the amputation of the penis.
(I would like to mention here that I am not responsible for the language which the dream uses, it is symbolical and does not hesitate to express reality.)
The dreamer is reminded of a friend who used to wet his bed as a child and whose nurse threatened to cut off his penis.
The dreamer once stood in a Gothic church and gazed at a figure of the Mother with the Holy Child in her arms.
It is common for very infantile people to have a mystical, religious feeling, they enjoy this atmosphere in which they can admire their beautiful feelings, but they are simply indulging their auto-eroticism.
To them a thing with Eau de Cologne the dreamer says that he likes the scent because his mother used it as a remedy for her headaches; Eau de Cologne is also inflammable, an alcohol, a spirit.
Prof. S.D. is a well-known figure, he once operated up on the dreamer and saved his life.
Dr. S. is a nerve doctor, he does not preach morals to his patients, but leads them out of their state of depression by a kind of healing power.
This figure then, that combines the Professor and the Doctor, is a life-saver; he has not appeared in earlier dreams, in this one for the first time the dreamer meets him as the doctor who can hypnotize his sexuality into normality.
His mother wears rings set with beautiful stones.
It used to be the dreamer’s childish delight to accompany her to jewelers where he loved to admire all the beautiful stones.
He wonders if he should return to these places with her?
What do we see in this dream?
The appendicitis shows again a kind of castration.
We have seen that the dreamer was identical with his sister and here the point is stressed, his manly side is cut off.
Then we come to the altar scene where he is the child in the mother’s arms, the Jesus child, the pure child of God, soft and delicate as a girl, but a contrast to th e real girl in the family, the naughty daughter who finds less favour with her mother.
While the dreamer washes himself with Eau de Cologne and remains in the pleasant situation, his mother has no headaches, she has nothing to worry about; but this is evidently wrong since to sit in his mother’s lap when twenty years of age is dangerous; and to break up this situation the doctor appears.
Here the saving motif of the jewels follows.
Jewels of all kinds mean values, the beautiful things that we prize and treasure.
These jewels are worn by the mother, his values are linked with her, he has invested his whole feeling in her.
He cannot suddenly say “Now I will no longer be homo-sexual, I do not belong to the mother any more, I will not obey her, I will simply leave the house!” for then he would throw over all his capital, he would go out into the world leaving all his feeling values behind, and these cannot be replaced by intellectual gifts.
If he sets out in his way he would just come up against his inferior side.
The dreamer should, on the contrary, take his feeling side with him , but just this p art of himself he has left in the mother and it draws him back to her.
We see that no hope of a cure lies in this direction.
To enable the dreamer to lead a normal life, the mother must first be depreciated, then he can take possession of the values he had left with her and carry them over into his life.
This process entails a psychological development; nobody can speculate as to how this change may take place, it can only come to pass through the experience that life brings.
His dreams must show him other feeling values, other possibilities which will be stepping stones on the path of his transformation.
Already they speak to him of his actual condition in the strongest possible terms.
He must be awake to what destiny may put before him, the unconscious is clearly ready to take the other road, the new road which means another kind of development.
Dream IV –
I am walking with two club friends.
One of them, a medical student, says that he has given Mme L. a morphine injection in the thigh, he cut off the hair on the lower part of her body and she was very angry.
The second friend is in a row boat on the other side of the street, he says “If I throw now, it will resound” and he throws a banana at him which bursts.
The two club friends are decent fellows, they stand in opposition to his homo-sexual friends, he has taken walks with them in a wood and to the Zoo.
The student friend had told him about Mme L., an old cocotte whom he had known in a sanatorium where she led the doctor astray.
She was a morphiomaniac and was able to get the drug through him.
The dreamer considered all this part of the dream extraordinary, especially the cutting of the hair and the injection of the morphia; nevertheless he was able to find an association with the sexual relationship between the doctor and Mme. L.
The rage shown by Mme. L. reminded him of his sister’s anger when he hit her over the head and of his own fear of the bull.
The man in the row boat is a nice fellow, the dreamer associates him with the doctor and also with a student hero.
The boat is an important symbol, just as the automobile was.
It appears specially in the dreams of seafaring people such as the British.
In throwing him the banana, the manly student throws him the sexual function.
The dreamer feels insulted for, as he is feminine and childish, the manly side strikes him in an unpleasant way: the bursting of the banana.
Here again he is thrown into affect as in a former dream when he discovered his feminine side. ~Carl Jung, ETH Lecture 11Jan1935, Pages 170-172.