The difference between most people and myself is that for me the “dividing walls” are transparent.
That is my peculiarity.
Others find these walls so opaque that they see nothing behind them and therefore think nothing is there.
To some extent I perceive the processes going on in the background, and that gives me an inner certainty.
People who see nothing have no certainties and can draw no conclusions–or do not trust them even if they do.
I do not know what started me off perceiving the stream of life. Probably the unconscious itself. Or perhaps my early dreams.
They determined my course from the beginning.
Knowledge of processes in the background early shaped my relationship to the world.
Basically, that relationship was the same in my childhood as it is to this day.
As a child I felt myself to be alone, and I am stilI, because I know things and must hint at things which others apparently know nothing of, and for the most part do not want to know.
Loneliness does not come from having no people about one, but from being unable to communicate the things that seem important to oneself, or from holding certain views which others find inadmissible.
The loneliness began with the experiences of my early dreams, and reached its climax at the time I was working on the unconscious.
If a man knows more than others, he becomes lonely.
But loneliness is not necessarily inimical to companionship, for no one is more sensitive to companionship than the lonely man, and companionship thrives only when each individual remembers his individuality and does not identify himself with others. ~Carl Jung, MDR, Pages 355-356